A 36 year old woman's journey towards better health and fitness

This is the reason:

I eat too many of these when they are around the office and right now, they are everywhere. It would be okay if I ate just one or two. The problem is that I can’t stop at just one or two. Instead I grab one or two everything I walk past the candy bowl, which could be four or five times a day. It’s like the bowl and the candy bars have a sweet, little, evil voice calling my name and seducing me with there yumminess. It can’t be something like this calling for me:


While I was looking for a picture to attach to this post, I found this:

Maybe this is the book I need to be reading to break my desire for sweets. Sigh… someday.

A co-worker talked me into signing up for this CrossFit event on Saturday.

31 Heroes 2013 – August 3, 2013 at a Crossfit Affiliate Near You.
“31 Heroes”
AMRAP 31 minutes (As Many Reps As Possible)
8 Thrusters (155/105#)
6 Rope Climbs (15 ft. ascent)
11 Box Jumps (30/24″)
This is a Partner WOD – Partner #1 will perform the work listed above. Partner #2 will run 400m with a sandbag (45/25). Once Partner #2 returns from the run, Partner #1 will grab the sandbag and begin their 400m, while Partner #2 continues work wherever #1 left off.

I am a little uncertain about what it will look like and how much I will be able to complete, but what have I got to lose by trying? Maybe a quarter inch off my ass. 🙂

Here is the purpose of this WOD: 31 Hero’s WOD
This WOD was created specifically to honor the 30 men and one dog that gave their lives for our country on August 6, 2011. It is 31 minutes long—one minute in remembrance of each hero. The rep scheme is 8-6-11—the date of their ultimate sacrifice. Finally, this is a partner WOD. The men who gave their lives were from multiple branches of our military, working together as a team. In the workout you and your team member will constantly be taking the load from each other providing much needed support and relief. We realize that no physical sacrifice made during a workout can come close to the sacrifice our brave heroes made, but we consider this WOD a CrossFitters “moment of silence.” This is how we can honor those that gave all in the name of freedom.

Wish me luck!

The results are in…

I did it!! I was able to lower my cholesterol level enough so my doctor didn’t insist on me starting meds. I was so relieved! I will also admit I am proud of myself. I know I did make small changes with my diet and lifestyle and those small changes added up enough to make an impact on my health in a positive way. Yeah for me!!! I met with my nutritionist today and she helped me see that I can make a difference without having to be so black and white or good verses bad. It was reassuring to be reminded and now I have the proof that I don’t have to have all or nothing thinking. Little changes are possible and manageable.

For the past couple months so much of my focus has been around eating the foods I needed to so I could bring my cholesterol down. Now I feel like I am in a better place and can start to focus more on the weight loss aspect of moving towards a healthier me. I may have been eating better foods but I wasn’t as aware of the serving size as I needed to be. So my goal for the next week is to track everything I put in my mouth. By everything, I mean everything: the tootsie roll I had before lunch, after lunch, and before I left for the day will be tracked. I need to work on changing my mentality around tracking. I play the game if of, “If I don’t write it down it didn’t count!” or ‘If I have to track it, I won’t eat it.” Well, let’s just say this… Mrs. K and I had this meal for dinner the other night:

Not the healthiest meal at all (I know! I know!) but we chose to go there and have dinner. I would not want to track this, but from here on I will and you know what? I am okay with having a super huge splurge like this once every 6 months.

So my motivation to keep honest and actually do my tracker is the deal I made with my nutritionist and PIMA. For every meal over the next week that I do not track, I get to do 5 burpees. That alone is enough motivation! I haven’t tracked any food since last Saturday, so if I would have had this rule in place, I would have had to have done 75 burpees today during my PIMA workout!


Time has come…

This morning I woke up and was in desperate need of my morning coffee! Little Miss Sunshine will be the first to tell you that I am GRUMPY when I don’t have my coffee. Laying in bed waiting for my alarm to go off, I could smell the wonderful brewing scent of heaven that fits in a cup. Then I realized, damn, I can’t have any! You see, last night I went to bed hungry because I had to prepare for my morning fasting lab, and I had to stay that way until after my visit to the vampires. Hungry and thirsty are not the way to start any day.


After three months of trying to live a healthier lifestyle today will be the day to really see if I have done enough to avoid having to take medication for my high cholesterol levels. When looking back over the last three months I know these things:
1. I have not avoided all fat or unhealthy foods
2. I did not exercise every day
3. I drank alcohol
4. I I did not track my food 100%
5. I did not lose weight

Of course it is easy for me to list off the things I did not do in a negative way, but let me identify the healthy things I have done too!
1. I have increased my exercise and pushed myself to new limits
2. Overall my eating has drastically improved
3. I keep fighting for the healthier way of life
4. I am now drinking spinach for breakfast (I think I deserve credit for that!)
5. I have remained healthy with my approach and have not falling back to harmful ways of achieving weight loss

Mid afternoon I was able to review my lab results. Now I am not a doctor (although I like to think I know everything after I’ve read WebMD!), but from what I saw my numbers have come down slightly. When I first saw the results I felt guilty and a little ashamed.


I starting thinking:  “I didn’t do enough! I didn’t work hard enough, try hard enough, or care enough. I wasn’t 100% committed, I didn’t eat clean, paleo or low carb for the whole 90 days.” I thought, ” I deserved this, I was weak and a failure and I let myself down. Now I remain unhealthy, still fat, and now will need medication.” I let myself down, Mrs. K down and worst of all I let Little Miss Sunshine down because I am not a “healthy” mother for her.

Isn’t it amazing how quickly my mind can turn on me. I immediately went to all the horrible things and the things I “should” have done in less than 60 seconds! So I did the best thing I could, I texted Mrs. K knowing she would be able to help me put things in perspective and she did. She reminded me: a. I am not a doctor so stop trying to read my own results, b. we are looking for a downward trend, not a cliff dive, c. I have made healthy changes!

Thank you, Love!

I see the doctor tomorrow morning at 11:15. I hope he will agree to give me three more months and continue to watch the numbers trend downward.

On a side note, I have been watching the CrossFit Games on TV. Holy Cow! Those athletes are amazing! If you have any interest in seeing what CrossFit is all about take a look and be sure to watch the videos of 60+ year old women demonstrating such amazing strength and agility. They are strong, powerful, beautiful women displaying their ability and also their desire to be healthy and not limited to the image of what a grandma “should” look like. They are an inspiration. CrossFit isn’t just for elite athletes, but it is about health and fitness at any age.

Women's Master's CrossFit Games

Women’s Master’s CrossFit Games

I will never have a body like Angelina Jolie, but I can only hope to have the strength like these women at any age!

I better type this message now because I have a feeling I won’t be able to move my arms much longer. If you have a hard work out everyone says the second day after the workout will be the worst, the day you are in the most pain. If day two is the worst and I am only on 4 hours, I am really in trouble!! I am guessing you have already guessed today was a CrossFit day.

The WOD was completely strength based. We did squats, lifts, jumps. The first type of jump was knees to toes. It is exactly what it sounds like. As I squatted on the floor and got into my knees position I couldn’t think of anything but the appropriateness of the position. I was down on the floor on my knees and decided I should say a prayer. Big girls can’t jump! The skinny little bean pole next to me was like a grasshopper jumping up and down. I, on the other hand, was like a hippo trying to move. Impossible task.
20130725-220135.jpgI attempted the jump several times and thought my kneecaps would break into a million little pieces as all 220 pounds of me landed back on my knees instead of my feet. Sigh… Then the teenager and skinny little beanpole started encouraging me to do it and said I almost had it and keep going. By the end, I did one. 🙂

At the beginning of the workout a teenager in the class was trying to do the rope climb. She kept telling our coach she couldn’t do it. But our coach basically told her to shut up, stop telling herself the negative thoughts and just get it done. And you know what, she did it!!! It was so Awesome to watch. She put one foot on top of the other and climbed the rope! She was amazingly brave. I decided I wanted to try too. Of course my negative thoughts were saying, “Come on really! Your fat ass isn’t getting anywhere close to the top of that rope.” But you see, that is what I love about CrossFit. The teenager that couldn’t do it earlier and didn’t believe in herself stayed after class to try and help me get it done. I didn’t get up the rope, I barely got off the floor, but I tried. And next time I go, I will try again. Some day I will get to the top of the rope and I might cry. But someday. For today, I worked on the footwork and I may work on the footwork for another two years, but one day I will do it!

I leave CrossFit and I feel strong, powerful, and capable.


Here are my stats. As you can see I made up on my sleep. I know it shows my exercise as only 28 minutes, but I wonder how it reads when I am lifting. It doesn’t show any vigorous exercise, but trying to go up the rope and also falling on my knees multiple time sure as hell felt like it should be in the vigorous category!! I didn’t meet any of my goals today except sleep, so tomorrow I will have to walk more and eat more, and burn more!!


Is it bed time yet?

Today has been a really long day!!! Last night I went to bed around 11:30pm and at 12:45am I got called by work and ended up having to go in. So I basically got 42 minutes of sleep. I worked from 3am until I was ale to leave around noon. This was me by the time I left:

20130724-213339.jpg Thankfully since I work at the hospital, no one was disturbed by the drool hanging from my mouth!
Fortunately I was able to come home and take a couple hour nap with our babies.

Hopefully that will be my last overnight for a long time! Before I went unconscious I checked my body media and this is what it said:


Because I got called in short notice I didn’t have time to pack a breakfast. Around 7am ended up walking to the bagel shop across the street from the hospital and got an egg bagel and a coffee. (Yes, that walk probably counted for 75% of my steps today!) I needed caffeine!! In the past when I have allowed myself to get so tired and hungry it leads to a binge, but today I managed to stay pretty close to plan. I come home from work and instead of going right to bed, I did take time to have lunch. I made a Lean Cuisine pizza and had fruit with it. Quick and easy and NOT McDonald’s drive thru!

When I got up from my nap I decided to try a recipe I found on Pinterest during my overnight time. (Hey I needed something to do while the patients were sleeping and calm!) I made an avocado and cucumber salad with grilled chicken. It was so yummy and Mrs. K even liked it! I will definitely make it again.

Avocado and cucumber salad

And now it is time to go to bed! I am looking forward to an uninterrupted night of sleep! My boss was very kind and took my call for me tonight so I could sleep. Thanks you boss lady! Tomorrow will be a new day and I am going to CrossFit tomorrow since I missed my workout today. 😦

Here’s my last upload before I head to bed. Sweet dreams everyone!


Road trip

My Body Media report for the day:


When I uploaded this data I was 38 calories shy of my target calorie burn for the day and 408 steps short but I am confident I will reach my goals while I am getting ready for bed! Between taking care of the three dogs and getting my stuff ready for tomorrow, I am sure I will walk the extra 400 steps, even if that means I have to go up and down the stairs several times for the steps to accumulate and as a way to burn 38 more calories! 🙂

Today wasn’t the healthiest eating day but once again, I am striving for progress not perfection. I spent the majority of my day driving: 3 hours to a meeting, 3 hours at a meeting and then 3 hours driving home. My work meeting included lunch (and the drive includes 2 stops at Starbucks). I opted for a healthier option on the menu but not as healthy as it would have been if I had packed it myself.

My lovely wife and I had to run errands when I got home, so we decided to have dinner while we were out. Before we left the house we took our three babies for a walk. They were so happy and they are so cute when they get so excited about a walk.


At dinner I opted for a healthier dish, but again, not as healthy as it would have been at home. Mrs. K is so wonderful she also opted for a healthier option so I wouldn’t be as tempted to cheat!! Since we were out we decided to walk the outdoor mall by our resturant so I could get some more movement in my day instead of a whole day of sitting. During our walk I was thinking about how nice is was to just be outside and walking. It seems so silly but sometimes I forget that I don’t need to pay a lot of money or go to a fancy gym to get a workout! Not only was it a nice walk, but the company with Mrs. K was the highlight of my day and the steps a bonus!

Picture curtesy of http://www.123rf.com

Golf and Double Unders!

I know I have been delinquent in my posting but I promise to get better!! The past two weeks have been INSANE! We were out of town and had a fabulous time!!




We played a lot of golf and had an amazing time even if my ball did land in some not so great spots!!

Between golf, we found time to really relax in the natural hot springs!

When we came home I immediately went back to work for the 1st day of a huge major project at work. I work in a hospital and we changed our whole electronic medical record system. Change is hard! Our new system has kept me very busy to say the least but I am happy to report we are now in week 2 since go-live and things are calming down.

So time to get back on track and focus on my health.


I found this quote on a friend’s Facebook page. I don’t know to whom I can credit it, but I love it! I now have this as my screen saver on my phone. It seems so simple and it is so true. So I keep reminding myself no one is standing in the way of my success but me.

To start with, instead of posting my body media on a separate page I am going to do it by date. So here ya go:


Every post I will try to report on one thing I am really proud of myself for. This time it is double unders!! A double under is a jump rope move at CrossFit. To complete. Double under you have to swing rope under your feet twice in one jump. It’s hard.


When we started the work out my goal for the day was to do one. All I wanted was one successful double under! I got 18!! I think I left the gym feeling like Little Miss Sunshine on Christmas morning!!! I was so happy and proud of myself!!

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